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Through my eyes.

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To Be A Cadet

Apr 12, 2026

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7 min read

To Be A Cadet

Humiliation Rituals.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Housekeeping

Apr 5, 2026

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5 min read

Housekeeping

“What if you run out of salt in the middle of the night?”

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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Outliers and Outcasts

Mar 29, 2026

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7 min read

Outliers and Outcasts

Nowadays my generation calls it FOMO. That sense of being left behind, of being an outsider, even when it’s not really your fault. But we can’t all be scouts, and we can’t all be drama students.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Somewhere Between Jeevanjee and the Multiverse

Mar 15, 2026

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8 min read

Somewhere Between Jeevanjee and the Multiverse

Lately I’ve been dreaming a lot about time and space. Alternate realities and all that cosmic mumbo jumbo. This is largely fueled by my unhealthy obsession with time travel movies that I’ve been binge-watching.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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No Moral High Ground

Mar 8, 2026

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8 min read

No Moral High Ground

In darkness there are no neat lines separating right from wrong. Boundaries exist only in righteousness, for what is good and just.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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Sweet Expectations

Mar 1, 2026

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5 min read

Sweet Expectations

You can almost picture the green screens, the rehearsed pauses, the careful delivery of lines meant to sound spontaneous. Predictable. The tension never quite builds.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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Mae e Polo

Dec 30, 2025

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8 min read

Mae e Polo

The music of our land.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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Rading’

Dec 28, 2025

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10 min read

Rading’

What fun, weird, or memorable moments did 2025 bring? Did you meet someone from Chad? Did a crab bite your small toe?

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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Snow? In Karachuonyo??

Dec 27, 2025

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3 min read

Snow? In Karachuonyo??

We were standing at the exact point where most of the area’s trade quietly changed hands. The abandoned well sat at a junction linking Otaro to a narrow dirt highway. Local boys with small bags passed through casually, and with nothing more than a twitch of the eyebrows, they could tell who was a customer and who wasn’t.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

Letters & Lovers

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Letters to Cheptolo, II: Lady Santa

Dec 21, 2025

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4 min read

Letters to Cheptolo, II: Lady Santa

Lady Santa visited me the other day. She brought me an early Christmas present and promised me a book early next year. I cannot wait.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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2014

Dec 16, 2025

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4 min read

2014

When 'Better Man' dropped, your primary school crush was the first person to tell you about it, and the two of you sang it along the railway tracks like the hopeless romantics you were. Good times. Good music.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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The Audibility of Silence

Dec 3, 2025

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3 min read

The Audibility of Silence

I remember my classmates settling into their seats, their faces glowing faintly under the fluorescent lights, their bodies weary from the day’s weight yet still open to the possibility of learning.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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I am the Captain of my Soul

Nov 30, 2025

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11 min read

I am the Captain of my Soul

I thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul. I have not winced nor cried aloud. Beyond this place of wrath and tears looms but the horror of the shade. And yet the menace of the years finds and shall find me unafraid. I am the master of my fate.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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Mistakes

Nov 2, 2025

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6 min read

Mistakes

Like running, the first thing you realize when you go hiking is that it’s a mistake. Your spirit lies to you that this is what you need, that it’s good exercise and all that nonsense. Yet once you actually start climbing, you body reminds you why evolution (and revolution) moved us from the woods into concrete jungles.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

The Neighbour & The Pilau

Oct 12, 2025

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6 min read

The Neighbour & The Pilau

Writing this on a Saturday night. A night that seems to have swallowed everyone else whole. Everyone has gone out to indulge in all manner of frivolity; the compound is eerily quiet, all my neighbours’ lights are off, and yet it’s only 7 p.m. Somehow, that quiet makes my own lethargy feel louder.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Tai Lung

Oct 1, 2025

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7 min read

Tai Lung

When we moved houses, Tai Lung was a distant memory. We don’t know if she died, or got pregnant again and started a serious family under a more loving household without dogs. We don’t know if her ghost still haunts the cats that live with us today.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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You’ve read 100 stories

Sep 28, 2025

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4 min read

You’ve read 100 stories

Tomorrow I’ll go for a drink to celebrate this little win. Maybe hit a few bowling pins to shake off my frustration from the derby defeat. Then come back, read a few pages, and start planning for the second phase of this 'baby' of mine.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

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Ifs, Buts, and Maybes

Sep 21, 2025

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6 min read

Ifs, Buts, and Maybes

I wonder if what will kill me will be a fruit falling on my head; if cats scheme against humans; if Musa Juma were still alive; I wonder if the gods have grown weary of my two decades on earth; I wonder if my girlfriend sometimes longs for a man more dark and athletic. . .

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Fourth Year: Parasols in Campus

Sep 14, 2025

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9 min read

Fourth Year: Parasols in Campus

With all this in view, it suddenly seems not to matter quite so much that you may (or may not) be a wretch, or that you should probably make more of an effort with your studies. The individual ego diminishes. You let yourself dissolve into a wider realm. What happens to you for the next one year no longer has to be the measure of everything. What does it matter so much what you’re worth or where you’ll end up after campus?

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Echoes in my grave

Aug 31, 2025

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12 min read

Echoes in my grave

Ghosts, of a conversation never had.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Popeye

Aug 24, 2025

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9 min read

Popeye

Popeye grabbed my shoes with his dry, dark hands. Despite the cold, they radiated heat, like they were weatherproof after decades of use. Like they were defiant to the cold and the leather he touched everyday. As he inspected the soles, I couldn’t help wondering where those hands had been. Thick, stiff, rough. No amount of soap or lotion could restore them. They had been through hell and back.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Weekend, but on a Tuesday

Aug 17, 2025

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5 min read

Weekend, but on a Tuesday

Nothing appears more therapeutic than smashing a ball into the air as hard as you can, without fear of decapitating someone, or swinging too hard. It seems like the perfect way to release a week’s worth of anger.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

+1

I have become like them

Aug 10, 2025

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5 min read

I have become like them

I did not understand the calmness of cows in the rain; they look like they know something we don’t. I did not understand cats lying quietly beside a hot jiko. Now I understand sunsets, and losing an afternoon to a chapter in a book. I have become like those fascinated by Mother Nature’s stillness, and terrified by her raging possibilities.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

Invisible & Forgotten

Aug 3, 2025

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7 min read

Invisible & Forgotten

Writing this tightens something in my chest. It makes me furious at myself, strangely. Because I haven’t even done anything wrong. I haven’t done anything at all. I’ve watched street children stay street children.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan

First-Person

+1

Once Was Enough

Jul 27, 2025

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8 min read

Once Was Enough

Some stories are legendary precisely because they happen just once. They’re a moment. It’s like trying to relive our best childhood memories. They wouldn’t be half as exciting if we tried to recreate them.

Juma Reagan
Juma Reagan
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