Has life ever caught up to you?

Ever thought your evil doings or mistakes won’t catch up to you?

I cannot number the number of things I’ve postponed over the years, or let slide in the false belief that they would not affect me later, or just simply covered things up hoping others won’t see. But most importantly, lying to myself that I won’t notice and will probably just forget. Out of sight out of mind, right?

But my brain has this rather annoying thing, I believe yours too, it brings up the worst of my memories when I clearly don’t need them. And even the happy memories it remembers in the form of sad nostalgia.

I could lie to others that something is past me, but my mind, aah this thing can be annoying sometimes.

You might, for example, not cry in a funeral (especially for men), saying that you should not cry, right? But more often than not, that grief piles up inside and later comes out by itself, leaving you with an even worse bruising to your soul. Psychology says this grief is often released as violent behaviour that leads to unnecessary crime.

This week I realized a lot of stuff happening in my life are due to things that I’ve swept under the rag over the years, and now it is time to clean under the rag and the rag itself. And it is messy, and painful. Tough. Often embarrassing. It’s tough when past mistakes I ignored come back to haunt me now. Some disappointments I left unattended come back stronger, and then I feel as if my life is bleak, yet it is just something I had to go through then and get done with.

I was recently telling a friend that when dealing with problems, I believe I just have to go through them and not around them. They might come back worse.

One of my favorite scenes in the first Avengers is when Steve tells Tony that the only thing Tony fights for is himself. He’s not one to make the sacrifice play of lying down on a bomb wire so that others crawl over safely. Tony, in typical Tony Stark fashion, replies to Steve that he (Tony) would just cut the wire, not lie on it. Cutting the wire is actually the best solution, because everybody gets over safe and the problem is fully solved. Not lying down and when the person lying gets up the bomb is still there to be triggered.

If it is pain, heartbreak, go through it and experience it to get it done with. If it is a daunting task, do it and get it done with. Instead of adding it to your to-do list and letting that list of things you don’t want to do pile up.

Do not forget for a moment the universal law of Physics, that for every action, there’s an equal and opposite reaction. The reaction can be now, or, if you let it, in the far future when it might not be needed.

If you sweep many things under the rag, over time you end up with a bumpy rag. Under this bumpy rag has to be cleaned one day, and it is often messier than the single cleanings you would have had before.

Reagan..✍🏽