😕Cancer Patient

Hello friends,

This week I watched a pretty sad movie called “The Fault in our Stars”. It’s a 2014 movie but a scene clip of it popped up in my Facebook watch recently and I decided to download and try it out.

The story (for context🙃) 

The movie’s a poignant romantic drama love story about a young 18-year-old girl, called Hazel Grace, who was diagnosed with lung cancer at age 14 and is now forced to breathe through a gas tube and has to cumbersomely drag along this backpack of hers that contains her oxygen tank. Whenever she finds it difficult to breathe, she later describes the feeling as water filling up her lungs and burning her insides. At one of the group therapy sessions with other cancer patients, she stumbles into this handsome blonde boy known as Augustus Waters. They later bond and become friends coz Augustus’ personality is one no one can resist, especially in Grace’s condition. Augustus has this unique lively, jolly, laugh-in-face-of-adversity kind of personality. He instills a little bit of that hope and ‘life’ into Grace even though they are both about to die soon. Long story short, after a failed meeting with their favorite author of their favorite book, Augustus’ cancer condition (he had leg cancer by the way, that forced one of his legs to be chopped off) worsens and he dies shortly after. He died a most painful death, leaving behind a hopeful Grace with a torn heart of love and a worsening lung cancer.😐.

It’s a great movie I’d recommend you watch; might bring back a pinch of humaneness in you that you might have never known you lost🙃.

Anyway, the movie clearly got me thinking a bit and made me appreciate the fact that I or my family do not have cancer - or at least that we know of. It reminded me to appreciate my current healthy state and life at large, knowing that one day it’ll be gone and the people left behind will be hurt more than what death did to us. It reminded me of accepting our situations, the importance of living in the moment and of cherishing every moment under the sun.

This is now my third issue of Brainwave Musings and so far so good🙂. I’ve increased the subscriber and open lists, which is encouraging. I feel like I have a lot to write so I’m thinking of having the issue on Wednesday’s too. Still thinking about it though for when I open school. But this Sunday issue is still well.

❤️My favorite things this week.

1. Bought my first bed🛌🏽😁 - well well well, on Wednesday this week got my first bed into our new place. Felt really excited since (1) I’d been sleeping on the couch; hurts your back like hell. (2) the prospect of ever moving out in the far future to my own apartment/place seems better coz at least I’ll have a starting point of a bed. As a writer I know of the importance of not starting on an empty sheet of paper. Anyway, I’ve slept like a baby this week :)

2. 💻My website😄🤗 - this is another week that I’ve been working on my website on Wordpress and it’s turning out great😁. Agh I just cannot wait to launch it to the world. It feels so damn good knowing you worked on something for so long and it’s now finally starting to take shape😌.

3. 🤑My biggest subscriber inflow yet😁 - this week I give thanks to a handful of my friends that agreed to subscribe to this my still ‘trial and error’ newsletter, even though they knew nothing of what I’m doing. Like faithful Abraham when he sojourned the land of Canaan, they willingly agreed to subscribe and now a part of me feels real proud to send this to more people. Aah those ones I must spoil one day when this my newsletter goes big, for helping me in the foundational phases of this rather ‘abstract’ thing.

4. My skin rash😬 is going away - well, if there’s anything that has humbled me for the past about four weeks is this strange skin malady that is now, hopefully, going away. A set of drug prescriptions and reshaping of my diet has made it go away gradually. Now my skin looks like a majestic tiger; dark brown spots on a brown yellowish background. Look’s real glowy in the sun. And my skin is softer too after using the ointments and cream, like a baby’s ass :)

5. 📖📚Book club - as I said in last week’s issue, I’m currently reading a book handed to me in 2021(lol😅) by one Leyzer Mabmara, known as When the grass is greener on the other side by Jackson Saya. I’m currently in the second last chapter and boy, ain’t my mind blown🤯!! I’ll leave you with two of my favorites quotes from the book so far:

PS: If you have a few seconds to spare, please hit the <reply> button and let me know what you thought of this email. I’d love to hear your thoughts on it and what could be improved. It also reminds me that there’s another person reading it on the other end of my screen😅. Thanks.

Have a wonderful week ahead!

Reagan.